Isn’t there a level “easy” in life?

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Hey guys,

Well, this is my first post for this blog, and I don't really know what I should say in this occasion. I don't even know how blogs work at all, to be honest. I was just having a bad day and thought: You know what? Maybe I should tell other people about my crappy day. And, so, here I am.

I've being going through a really hard time in life lately. Next week I'll turn 15 and things couldn't feel worse. Let me see if i can resume everything to you: I had a crush on my best friend and told him that, we fought and now we don't even look at each other, even though we study at the same classroom everyday; my girl best friend moved out of my city just before I fought with my other best friend; I can't find any more friends; and, last but not least, I have no idea of what my future holds or what I'm going to do after high school. I'm really just living a miserable life (a bit of dramatic) and existing.

Do you ever feel like everything is just so hard that the best solution is to give up? Because lately I don't really feel like doing anything, because everything seems so hard and difficult; nothing seems to work the way it should, and it really sucks. For example, I like to read books (a lot). But recently I just can't do it, no matter how hard I try. I don't even wanna do the things I like to do, and that's probably not normal or healthy, but I don't seem to find a solution for it.

I just wish everything could go back to how it was last year, so much easier. All that mattered was me and my three friends, but now we don't even talk anymore. Yeah, I think there is not a level "easy" in life. Everybody has to go through a lot of shit every time; that's how we grow, right? Learning lessons we really don't wanna learn.

Love you guys,

Bee.

P.S. I wrote this in April, 2022 ;)